I feel you. I wish you could hug someone and feel wanted for real! My wife now of almost 13 years started an affair online around 5 years ago…fast forward after many separations and horrible events and we ended up continuing to try, mainly because she said she was so so sorry and she felt so horrible inside. We had a baby 2 years ago and I just found out last Sunday that she is still talking to this man….mind you he lives almost 2,000 miles away so their relationship is internet basically. I’m at a loss, I don’t love her, she betrayed me and my son and she has been to rehab for RX stuff and just got into her 3rd accident tonight. I don’t know what to do, I wanna leave so bad but my son is my rock and I couldn’t stand the thought of not seeing him every day.