I have not been on a date and have not had sexual relations with a woman in 16 years. I was never married, and I do not have any children. I was in love one time, and it was wonderful. She was beautiful, smart, funny and courageous, she immigrated from Poland to the United States, and she spoke three languages, soon she was taking an English course and working part time at a Polish food store. I had met her through a friend, and I knew that I was in love with her after our very first conversation.  We were together for two and a half years, well the last half year we got pregnant, she called me in work and had asked me to come down to her brother’s house after work she said we have to talk.

I had an idea of what the topic would be and after I arrived, she had sent me to the store for a home pregnancy test (lol I had bought three different brands) after the first one revealed we were expecting she had a worried look on her face. I took that beautiful woman in my arms and told her I was not going anywhere and that I would be the best father and husband she could ever hope for. We drove back to our neighborhood and when I had parked in front of her house, I shut the car off and then came around to her door and offered her my hand, she looked at me stunned saying “what are you doing?” I told her that I would sit beside her and hold her as she told her mother and older sister the news. She started to cry but the cry and the look on her face are two things that I will never forget they told me she trusted me and that she felt safe with me.

I’m sorry for rambling, my answer to your question is   I’ll never date again.  I’m going to stop here because no one will ever see this.